Tired Update

So I survived my first day of fasting. Not sure I did what I was supposed to. I was so hungry that it was distracting. I did have water and coffee in the morning and then had dinner that night. I did study the word and pray but I'm not sure it was how one really is supposed to go about fasting. I think next month I will try and do a little studying about fasting. Maybe that will help me clear a few things up.
Today I am a little down. I don't feel like we are making any progress towards paying off debt and getting to a point where we will be able to start moving forward towards adoption. I am not sure of a lot of things. Not sure that Craig is on board. I think he is just hoping I will just forget about all of this as time goes on. I am not sure I am completely on board will all of this. There are days I just don't feel like I can handle another child. I don't think I am a very good mom on most days. I just don't know about a lot of things. I guess that is why God is taking his time with all of this. And I thought I was a patient person. Maybe I'm just tired right now. Work has been crazy and I haven't been sleeping good. I just feel like if we could just get this house sold things would start happening. I have been working extra and it seems like there is always something that comes up that we have to use the extra money I've earned to pay for. At least we are not going further into debt. I can praise the Lord about that.
We start a new Bible study tomorrow w/ the Sunday School class. Guys and girls are meeting separate but we are studying the same book. Gospel in Life by Timothy Keller. I pray I get some more wisdom or insight into all I feel like God is calling me to do right now. I just feel like I have so much on my plate and I don't know how to manage it all. Not to mention that the boys are about to start soccer and T-ball which will complicate things a little more. I just need a couple of days to rest I think :) I know, not gonna happen. Thank goodness its almost the weekend!