I have been fasting on the 14th of every month. It wasn't what I had imagined. I thought it would be very solemn, that I would spend most of the day in prayer and meditation. I guess that is hard to do when you have to continue living life w/ 3 children. We were in Pensacola this month at mema's. Anyone who know mema knows that she is going to question why you aren't eating. I went ahead and explained to her that I would be fasting and of course I got "why?" Didn't really want to tell her that is was b/c we are considering adoption. Too many questions to have to answer. I just told her that I had made a commitment and felt like fasting was a good practice. That was enough to satisfy her.
The day went well. I was definitely more tempted to eat being at her house. But I did it. I went on the front porch and caught up on some Bible reading. It was actually very peaceful. I wish I could do that sometimes here. It seems so hard to just stop and be peaceful.
Anyways, I am feeling more and more confident in adoption. Although, I don't really have any clue how and where to begin. It also seems like as soon as we get a little closer to paying down our debt, something happens and we have a big sum of money go out the window. This time it is the frig. I will be purchasing a new one today. I was really hoping we would be able to go to Disney this year before we have to pay for Izzy but I guess we will be enjoying a new refrigerator instead :( Oh well, that's life.
I am not sure where Craig stands on the adoption issue. I haven't talked to him about it in a while. I guess we need to discuss it again. I don't want him to think I have dropped it b/c I haven't talked about it in a while. I am sure he doesn't think that. I am not the type of person to just decide to let things go :)
I am really excited to see how and when God is going to begin to open doors for us to add to our family. I can't wait to meet our new addition!
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